among the shifting dunes of salt and foam
realities fade into dreams, and visions coalesce
into solid forms

i am a shepherd, and
the waves are my sheep
but

to sail, to journey
also makes me a captain
without a name, no glory
faded from thoughts
the color of air

this is fine
being unthought of is fine

the problem is,
every captain must carry a curse
didn't you know?
perhaps you too are
a captain

mine is, well
mundane
like the common cold

through the shifting dunes of salt and foam
i see a smile, a mirage
the beautiful dream we had
what else is there to say?

i want very little, now
no compensation
no reward
no praise, no pity, 
not even sympathy

what i wish for is
a soft breeze to sweep the leaves
in the mild afternoon at sunset
where my heart used to be


“Three or four times only in my youth did I glimpse the Joyous Isles, before they were lost to fogs, depressions, cold fronts, ill winds, and contrary tides... I mistook them for adulthood. Assuming they were a fixed feature in my life's voyage, I neglected to record their latitude, their longitude, their approach. Young ruddy fool. What wouldn't I give now for a never-changing map of the ever-constant ineffable? To possess, as it were, an atlas of clouds.” (Mitchell, D.)