I wanted a metamorphosis, 

a change to fish, 

to leviathan, 

to destroyer. 

I wanted the earth to open up, 

to swallow everything in one engulfing yawn. 

I wanted to see the city buried 

fathoms deep

in the bosom of the sea. 

I wanted to sit in a cave and

read by candlelight. 

I wanted to be alone for a thousand years

in order to reflect on 

what I had seen and heard 

- and in order to forget.

(Henry Miller)